We have so much to be thankful for this year. Above all...Love! We are blessed!
Friday, November 28, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
Rear In Gear 2014...Boston.
Another "wicked" amazing race!
I love this day so much.
It means so much to me, to have all of our family and friends who traveled from near and far gathered in one place to run for such an important cause.
This year we had over 80 people on our team and raised $3,500!
For the first time, I ran on my own, without Millie or Chase. And I ran fast! One of my fastest 5Ks yet, a 7:15 minute mile a total of 22:29, I came in 34th place over all and 4th in my division. I was pretty happy! Chase ran his own mile too, and was so proud. He walked up to anyone who would listen and said "I ran berry, berry fast!" Over the last couple months my morning runs end with Chase begging me to let him out of the stroller so he can run, well I guess his training paid off too!
It is hard to believe that this was our 4th year. I think back to the first year, it was held just a couple weeks after Alec died. I wonder how I did it...how did I smile? How did I even get out of bed? How did I put one foot in front of the other...how did I run? And then I realize, oh yeah, God. God carried me through that time. God's love...the love of my family and friends...carried me.
Towards the end of the event I had to ask the event coordinator a question, I introduced myself and thanked her for all the effort she and the others put forth to hold this race every year. She told me that she knew who I was, in fact she had a picture of Chase's stroller with the sign that said "In Memory of My Dad" on her desk, and it is a reminder to her why she does this event. We both started to cry, I was so touched by what she shared with me. I am so thankful for those who put so much time and effort into Rear In Gear, the awareness and attention that it brings to colon cancer, it literally saves lives.
I thank you all who donated, ran, supported, cheered. We are so, so, so lucky. My life just keeps getting better.
It was so wonderful to see Missy and Megan, we have a special bond, that only those who lost their spouses can truly understand. To look our children running around so happy and excited, filled with so much love and innocence and joy...we are truly blessed, to have that kind of love.
I love this day so much.
It means so much to me, to have all of our family and friends who traveled from near and far gathered in one place to run for such an important cause.
This year we had over 80 people on our team and raised $3,500!
For the first time, I ran on my own, without Millie or Chase. And I ran fast! One of my fastest 5Ks yet, a 7:15 minute mile a total of 22:29, I came in 34th place over all and 4th in my division. I was pretty happy! Chase ran his own mile too, and was so proud. He walked up to anyone who would listen and said "I ran berry, berry fast!" Over the last couple months my morning runs end with Chase begging me to let him out of the stroller so he can run, well I guess his training paid off too!
It is hard to believe that this was our 4th year. I think back to the first year, it was held just a couple weeks after Alec died. I wonder how I did it...how did I smile? How did I even get out of bed? How did I put one foot in front of the other...how did I run? And then I realize, oh yeah, God. God carried me through that time. God's love...the love of my family and friends...carried me.
Towards the end of the event I had to ask the event coordinator a question, I introduced myself and thanked her for all the effort she and the others put forth to hold this race every year. She told me that she knew who I was, in fact she had a picture of Chase's stroller with the sign that said "In Memory of My Dad" on her desk, and it is a reminder to her why she does this event. We both started to cry, I was so touched by what she shared with me. I am so thankful for those who put so much time and effort into Rear In Gear, the awareness and attention that it brings to colon cancer, it literally saves lives.
I thank you all who donated, ran, supported, cheered. We are so, so, so lucky. My life just keeps getting better.
It was so wonderful to see Missy and Megan, we have a special bond, that only those who lost their spouses can truly understand. To look our children running around so happy and excited, filled with so much love and innocence and joy...we are truly blessed, to have that kind of love.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
10.23.14
Light up the sky.
I can't believe it has been three years.
On one hand it feels like a thousand, on the other it feels like just yesterday. I don't know what to think.
I must say one thing. I am so proud. Proud of who I am today, proud of Chase, proud of how far we have come. I am stronger in every way. I am changed. I was lost, I am found.
Sometimes I feel like shouting from the mountain tops "I made it! I am here! I am not broken any more!". There is life after death and it can be good.
I truly feel as though I made it through the most difficult period of my life. I can see clearly now. My life makes sense, I do not fear the future. I put my trust in God. I am going to be OK. I even feel as though this month was closure for me in a way. I can start over, I am different, I am ready. I don't have to or want to be sad anyone, my new life can begin.
A post from my Facebook Page...on 10.23.
Thank you for all the birthday wishes! I am so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life!! As today marks three years since Alec's death, I am grateful for so much. For our darling son, and the joy he brings to so many. I am grateful for the ability to cherish each day, and to have a perspective on what really matters. I am grateful for the healing, acceptance and peace that now flow through me. I am grateful that this experience has made me stronger...spiritually, emotionally, even physically, I have chosen to not be defined by grief, but to learn from it...draw strength from it. And most of all I am grateful for the love that in my life...my once shattered, empty, broken heart is whole again and it over flows with love, gratitude and appreciation.
Alec Cyr, you are loved, you are missed, you taught me so much, you are and always will be an inspiration, a hero, thank you. As Chase ever so lovingly said the other morning, "Dada is in my heart and donuts are in my belly"
Amen Chase. Amen. (Although not sure who gave him a donut, must have been your mother
"I loved deeper, spoke sweeter, I gave forgiveness I'd been denying, some day I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying"
-Tim McGraw.
I can't believe it has been three years.
On one hand it feels like a thousand, on the other it feels like just yesterday. I don't know what to think.
I must say one thing. I am so proud. Proud of who I am today, proud of Chase, proud of how far we have come. I am stronger in every way. I am changed. I was lost, I am found.
Sometimes I feel like shouting from the mountain tops "I made it! I am here! I am not broken any more!". There is life after death and it can be good.
I truly feel as though I made it through the most difficult period of my life. I can see clearly now. My life makes sense, I do not fear the future. I put my trust in God. I am going to be OK. I even feel as though this month was closure for me in a way. I can start over, I am different, I am ready. I don't have to or want to be sad anyone, my new life can begin.
A post from my Facebook Page...on 10.23.
Thank you for all the birthday wishes! I am so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life!! As today marks three years since Alec's death, I am grateful for so much. For our darling son, and the joy he brings to so many. I am grateful for the ability to cherish each day, and to have a perspective on what really matters. I am grateful for the healing, acceptance and peace that now flow through me. I am grateful that this experience has made me stronger...spiritually, emotionally, even physically, I have chosen to not be defined by grief, but to learn from it...draw strength from it. And most of all I am grateful for the love that in my life...my once shattered, empty, broken heart is whole again and it over flows with love, gratitude and appreciation.
Alec Cyr, you are loved, you are missed, you taught me so much, you are and always will be an inspiration, a hero, thank you. As Chase ever so lovingly said the other morning, "Dada is in my heart and donuts are in my belly"
Amen Chase. Amen. (Although not sure who gave him a donut, must have been your mother
"I loved deeper, spoke sweeter, I gave forgiveness I'd been denying, some day I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying"
-Tim McGraw.
I put together this video about a month ago. Every time I see a ray of light, shining through the sky I think it is Alec. Alec's mom believes the same thing. And looking back at my photos, I have so many photos where those rays of light are visible. One song that really got me through some dark times was "Light Up The Sky" by the Afters. I would listen to it on my morning run, and it always seemed to inspire me, comfort me, heal my heart in a way. To me this is proof that Alec was always with us, he is the light, he is love, he is with God, but forever in our hearts.
And despite Chase only being 3 years old, he gets it. We were crossing the bridge from New Hampshire to Maine this morning and the sun was coming up and although it was mostly cloudy, the sky was a beautiful red along the horizon. He immediately noticed and said "Mom! Look! Daddy did that! Daddy made that sky! Good job Dad. Mom, tell Dad good job!"
Good job Alec, good job.
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
A Wicked Good Summah.
I can not believe that summer is over, and not only is it over, but its almost October! It flew by and was one of the best ones I have had in a long, long, time. I was carefree, happy and really able to soak in the glory of each day.
Chase enjoyed every moment, whether we were at the beach, visiting Lilliana, hiking mountains, catching frogs, sitting around the campfire...pretty much any and every possible summer activity we could squeeze into a day.
We are grateful for a summer filled with friends, family, beautiful weather and so many special memories.
For the first time in a long time, I am enjoying Fall. I never thought that would be possible, but with a heart full of love, and I know that Fall will bring the same kind of happiness that summer brought. It is new, it is different, but it is all "wicked good!"
Here is a quick recap of some highlights!
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| Chase, getting down at Union Church party, celebrating 150 years! |
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| On one of our daily adventures! |
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| Getting spiffed up! |
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| Visiting cousin Lill in Boston! |
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| Making her giggle! |
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| Stopped in to say Hi to Uncle Bri |
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| ALmost fits! |
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| Helping with the hose! |
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| Auntie Jill, Lill and Uncle Bri |
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Kissing frogs!   |
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| Digging for Clams with Papa! |
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| A dirty job but somebody's got to do it! |
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| Made it to the top! (And had to pee!) |
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| Millie at her favorite spot in Acadia |
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| Chase...3 years old and this is his second year climbing mountains. Daddy would be proud! |
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| Follow me! |
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| His favorite summer food (besides monster mash ice cream) |
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| SOmetimes a lift from Papa sounds like a good idea. |
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| Lost track of how many frogs we met this year! |
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| Chase and Mill |
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| Campfire time! |
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| Picking flowers for a special someone.. |
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| Just...walking a runway! |
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| Sweet Lil' Lill! |
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| Favorite ice cream with Yaya and Mimi! |
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| Snails. |
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| Getting buried became a favorite hobby! |
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