Alec Fix

Every now and then I need an "Alec Fix".  Chase and I will often go to his grave and then before he goes to bed, we will watch a video that I had made from the funeral and wake.  I love watching the video, it makes me laugh, cry and helps me remember the good times.  I miss him so much, some days a lot more than others.  Chase loves watching the videos too, he snuggles up next to me and points to every picture and says "Dadda!"  and then when he sees Dadda with a fish he says "Eesh!!"  And when he sees blue ocean behind his Dadda he says "Wawwa!".  It is the cutest thing and I am so happy I have such beautiful pictures, set to beautiful music and I am able to sit down and watch my beautiful life with my beautiful little boy. 

Since I needed an "Alec Fix" tonight, I thought I would share a few photos.  I thought about what we would be doing this week.  He would have already brought us to the tree farm, picked out the PERFECT tree (and it would probably be17 feet tall) and then we would have struggled to put it up and he would have had to use the broom to hang the lights (because its 17 feet tall) and then we would watch Elf the three of us would cuddle on the couch.  Oh what could have been...

Something about a man and a saw...

Looking for the perfect tree.

Our first family Christmas Photo

Alec and his favorite girl...(besides me!)

Those antlers looked a lot cuter on Chase!

They have been in the family for many years.

Picking out what would be our last Christmas tree together.

He would also be hunting...every free second he had.  And I would be right there beside him...sometimes flushing out the birds myself.

This year Alec will again be spending Christmas win Heaven...I wish things were different, but I know he is safe and happy and with God.